"Comforter"

I used to think that I'm quite "independent" as I earn my living expenses with my effort. Juggling between college and part-time job isn't an easy task especially my college life is blended with extra-curricular activities eg: sport events and student council's meetings and events which will be "hunting" me very soon.

BUT, today I find out that how important is "SHE" to me in my life. I was in terrible bad mood with stuff that I'm facing at the moment. Home is the only place which I can release myself from being an "ironic" girl to "immature" girl, I find no way out to express my frustration to my beloved ones- My mother. She forever do not understand what is happening in my school life but with the hot steamed rice, hot soup, delicious food on the dining table and also her "patience and caring" calm me down instantly. At the moment, I realized that without her I'm nothing. She is my core supporter regardless of any conditions. Uncondition love from her, I feel safe and being love although I have to go through many hardships in different aspects. I do not need to go for a counseling session with my mum, her unspoken act has already enough for me to escape from the troublesome and control my bad temper.

I have to admit that I'm a traditional Chinese, I do not know ways to express my appreciation and love to my parents. Hugging or just by saying "I Love You" is not my "style". BUT, I really do love my parents for bringing up who am I today. I learn many values in the education field for being a part-time tuition teacher. It makes me totally understand that every "tears and sweats" of each parent goes through to educate their children. It is a long-life project, no holidays and stand by 24-7. Dad and Mum, both of you did a good job. Thank you, I love you.


Your daughter,
Siew Yan.

too free~

你的出现令我的眼光不由自主地朝你的方向望去。

不断地打量你的衣着，言行举止。

你拥有无限的神秘感，

也许距离使我好奇地在你的身上寻找答案。

因好奇产生化学作用。

你呆若木鸡的表情，灵活的思维，

无法阻止我不停在你的一举一动作出逻辑性的解答。

可悲的是没有明确的答案，

只因个人的传统观念及超强的自尊心。

超出正常的心跳规律令我陷入自我陶醉的世界。

good news VS bad news

Good News: Assignments almost accomplished.
Bad News: The Finals are coming.

For the past three months, my life is full with college matters, eg, assignments, discussion, presentation and not forgetting mid-terms.

Random stuff is coming out from my brain.

Low self esteem is something I wish to improve and always been failed.
I'm not too good for many things but average for everything.

Comparison makes improvement/advancement but cause pressure and other related issues.

Am I qualified to fulfill my desire? Yes, No ?

The answer remain UNKNOWN in myself.

I wish someone could tell me the answer.


/Yan

感触

恋爱像吸毒，

越吸越上瘾.

轻则咖啡因，

重则海洛英.

失恋如戒毒，

悬挂半空中,

不上不下.

* 你呢? 处于哪情况?

Sudden ShocK~

Everything seem fine through out the days. I have thought of what would my response will be if the long lost feeling come back again~!!

GUess what~!! MY 6th sense has never fail me.

After a long period, it come back again~!!! Is the right decision to discard you from my life? I made the decision last time but it failed. My wish is your name will never appear in my contacts again. I'm afraid of YOU, I will lost myself in front you.

IF you asked,"Is some one in my heart?"

My answer is I DON'T KNOW.

Certainly, I'm not willing to go back like last time. We are not SAME, living in a different world.

feelings

Have you ever ride on a roller coaster before? I experienced today after a long period. I think will end soon? Hope so~!!!

Recently

当重担在自己的肩膀一段时间后，

就会慢慢地习惯它的存在。

久而久之，就会演变成一种责任。

照顾爸妈以及支付家庭的一切开销的日子指日可待。

问题是我有没有能力担起这个家，

但我会竭尽全力去孝顺父母！

谁说女儿就像泼出去的水，一去不回头?