About "HIM"

Wondering ? who is HIM? someone special in my life. He had hurt and helped me throughout our friendship and blur status of relationship.
I missed him so much before and after HE went to other country. Maybe is a faith or maybe is a god's decision to make us apart from each other and just being friends but not closer relationship like couple as I wish so much before this.
There's no transition of status between us but a blur status mixing of close friends and a little bit of attractions. I cannot deny that I never forget or erase HIM from my heart although the incident was 1 year ago.
For those who close with me,definitely will know who he is once you saw the word of HIM.